My family is going to be here in a week! 🙂 🙂 🙂 (that’s the three of us)
15-May-2005
Sorry about that last post, I shouldn’t write on soccer nights. Look at the the profile picture, it’s a drawing of mine that I have hanging up here in our room. As I looked at it last night and today it sturck me that here is Jesus, His body borken for me; can’t I be broken for Him?
14-May-2005
This whole injury thing is so frustrating! I can hardly do anything without setting it off again. I think I have kind of been waiting for something like this to happen, it was too good to last.
There’s a verse in the Bible that says “take heed where you think you stand less you fall” I knew this and I also knew where I stood physically. I was proud of my standing though I always thought I could be much better than I currently was. I mean, I could do 75 push-ups in a minute, I had run a 6 min. mile, and I even had a six pack. I had physical endurance and I loved it! Yet I was also wary that at any moment I might lose it, so many times I have come so close but God spared me, why then? Why now?
I think to have had something major would have been easier to work with, I could have thrown myself into rehabilitation, but all I can do right now is sit and wait. What does God want me to learn? Did I miss it the first time and so I have to have a second go around?
I keep thinking about how we have to be broken for God to use us; Job said, “I was at ease but He hath broken me asunder”. But David says that He keepeth the bones of the righteous, not one of them is broken. I must plead with David that God would “make me to hear joy and gladness, that the bones which Thou hast broken may rejoice.”
So now I am broken in God’s hands; now His strength can be made manifest because my own is gone. I can’t even carry a goofy panful of stuff in the kitchen without feeling it, talk about helplessness. I pray that I will find what ever it is that He is wanting from me so that He will not have to break me worse.
13-May-2005
Something really struck me as I watched the movie, Luther, tonight. When he was going to defend himself at the first Diet of Worms, all the people were making a big fuss over him, asking for his blessings, sort of making an idol of him, but he paid no attention. His mind was not on popular opinion.
Later, in front of many nobles, church officials and powerful men, he refused to recant, and turned to leave. He had defended himself well and made a good points, the people were impressed, but he did not look to any of them for approval, nor did he look to the crowd as they chanted his name.
What he did was by conviction of what was right, not by what others thought about him. Luther looked to no one but God and that’s what made him so steadfast.
I too often am swayed by the crowd, trying to please them rather than coming to convictions and abiding by them. I look to man for approval instead of God; I go with the flow. Just as Luther’s stance encouraged the princes to stand up for their beliefs, so I pray that I also will be inspired to stand firm.
12-May-2005
My rib is busted again – please pray.
