The Cahill's

Delight thyself in the Lord, and He shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Ps. 37:4

Earlier this week I had been feeling a little overwhelmed with all the things that we needed to do before we left.  During my jog I started worrying to God about how everything was going to fit into the precious few days we had left. Realizing what I was doing I changed tact, I told God about all the silly little things I desired and then asked Him to fulfill them or to please correct my desires, but ultimately left all things in His hands.

Everything started shutting down this weekend; we taught our last American Lit class; held the last worldview class; talked to all three people that I had specifically requested of God (one was a disciple, one a discipler and one a good friend) I also took my little sister and two little friends to roller blade at a park. There were a few more desires that I had written down, but already God had allowed my heart to be free and accepting whether or not they happened, I trusted that what He brought about was what was best.

God still had great things in store for me – today was a banner day! Starting with my favorite breakfast this morning, God continued to grant undeserved blessings all day. My nephew came over and I had a wonderful time taking pictures of he and his parents, we played the best two hour game of mud soccer and then went out for pizza. Just when I thought everything was through, dad stopped at a gas station and let each of us pick out a pint of Blue Bell ice cream! We’re going to eat it tomorrow for breakfast  What neat little ways God says that He loves us, it reminds me of Matthew 7:9-11 Oh my wonderful loving heavenly Father!

The other morning I was getting ready for work and thinking how it would really be nice if I could just stay home and get a few things done. I started to ask the Lord if He could work something out but stopped, it was twenty minutes until we would leave and I had said that I would be there, I couldn’t beg off now – nothing could be done. Not two minutes later, just as I was finishing, my sister came in and said that dad had already left, she had called him and he said that he didn’t need us that morning. Wow, God did it even though I thought it was useless to ask – O ye of little faith.

About a month ago, when we first started working with dad, I got something in my eye; probably a little piece of sheetrock or sawdust or something. It didn’t bother me during the day because I had contacts, but at night every time I would start to fall asleep and my eyes would roll back it would hurt and wake me back up. I tried many different tactics to rid myself of this nuisance but nothing worked, it only hurt worse. This went on for almost a week until I finally turned to God and told Him that I really needed Him to get that thing out of my eye. I needed some good rest and I was afraid of my eye being permanently damaged. That night when I went to sleep it was gone! Not a week later I had the same problem but in the other eye. This time it only took me three days to ask the Lord to remove the problem and He did.

Everything has gone well until just a few days ago when it happened again. Having already forgotten His goodness and care for His children, I endured a night hoping it would go away. We suffer so needlessly, if only we would ask. The next night as I took out my contacts I again became aware of the speck in my eye, only this time I asked the Lord to clear it away. I finished getting ready, read a few chapters of The Prince and the Pauper, a chapter of Matthew and then lay down to sleep, and you know what? My eye was fine, the speck was gone!

The Lord loves His children and will give them good things, we must learn to ask.

I was sitting inside trying to type up a speech but not getting very far – the weather was distracting me. Sunlight pouring in the windows, blue sky peeping around fluffy white clouds, all of nature beckoning me to come and rejoice in the day that the Lord had made. After all it was January and 75 degrees outside, (I love the Texas winter ) I couldn’t waste such good weather so I asked my little brother if he wanted to do anything outside so I would have an excuse to stop typing.

What an eye-opener of an afternoon. I found out just how much I usually followed my own way in direct opposition to what someone has said – thinking I know better. Timothy took me out to help him clear some trails on the paintball course he and my other brothers were working on. Having just been thinking about a woman’s role I thought I would just stand back and let him be the boss. (being 10 years old and the youngest boy, he normally is the one ordered around) So I asked him want he wanted me to work on and he gave me a trail to clear. Several times as we cleared that and a little clearing he would make a suggestion which would go against my line of thought and had it been any other time I would have disregarded him and done it my way. But each time I followed his lead, and each time after I had struggled inside myself and relinquished my “superior knowledge” he would add something to his instructions and I would see that if I had followed my ideas it would have been counter productive.

It was wonderful to see his confidence swell as he took on his role. I am always telling them to act the man, but I needed to step back and let them. Thank you Lord for showing me my place, thank you for opening my eyes to my rebellion and pride, and thank you for your grace that will teach me to submit.